I just read a little snip-it about Joan Rivers doing a F–k It List, as opposed to the popular Bucket List. I think this is genius! She feels that at her age, just go for it. But I say, at any age, we should just go for it!
This naughty but nice list is exactly what I have been attempting to do this year. I have passed up so many opportunities and dismissed so many ideas in my life because I was always too afraid to fail! My whole life I have always taken the safe bet. I made choices based on what I knew I could do, and not just do, do really well. My motto was to be the best or why bother. Yes, I know that is ridiculous; it comes from being a pure-bred perfectionist.
By the end of 2013 I came to hate the meaningless work I was doing. My husband and I worked together every day as well, and that wasn’t working out either. Thankfully, getting out of it was the easy part, it was letting go that was the hard part. I admit I like to control things and I have a hard time trusting people. I didn’t want to pass my work to someone else. When I realized I needed to put trust in other people and have faith that my letting go would benefit everyone, it was like a hundred pound weight had been lifted. Seriously, angels were singing! It was glorious!
The next hard part was figuring out what I wanted to do. There I was on the verge of a new year, 42 years old, and still did not know what I wanted to do when I grew up. So, I just let it go. I surrendered and I put it out to the universe. With tears pouring down my face, I asked for guidance. I asked for a clear picture of what I am to do. For the first time ever, I wasn’t worried. I knew it would come.
And it did.
And for the first time in my life, I am saying, “F–K IT!”
Welcome to #1 on my list: Start a blog and write, write, write. ✓